I've missed it..........

HEY BLOG WALL!!!

Look I know that no one reads you but that is no excuse for the abandonment on my part. I'm truly sorry...

Anyway I haven't written anything recently and its kind of bugging me. I have locked away my writing mind to focus on drawing, which I do aaalot!

Speaking of which I should upload some images onto here for the vast populations veiwing pleasure.. (note to self)

But anyway I'm really going to try and balance the writing and the sketching into a balanced diet. Shouldn't be to hard with a little help from the old writing coach :p x.

I will definitely DEFINITELY not leave it so long to write another blog/random rambling.

Later :]

"What am I thinking?".....you should'nt have asked

Erm....sorry.

I can only apologize for the shocking imagery.

But come on. Its pretty cool. Well I think it is. And an argument could be created to claim that I think about things of such a ludicrous nature far to much... they would be correct in their argument.

But try and argue that the following three factors are not worth spending some precious oxygon on;

• If Dinosaurs were infact not extinct, would'nt you want them to be sent to mars to investigate if their is infact other life. And to completley obliterate anything it came across so to ensure that it couldnt oppose the human race?......(think about it)

• In the marvel civil war era, look I know you like Iron Man more than captain America but are you really happy that Tony Stark kills Steve Rogers? The Man's a patriot for gods sake!...(you should really think about that one!)

• And finally. Even if you doubt religion and all it stands for try to deny this.... If Jesus Christ did exist. It would'nt have hurt for him to be a Cyborg Pirate Ninja! I mean he aint gettin chucked on a cross with those kind of skills right? (I know you've thought about it... :p)

Well that was refreshing...

Later :]

Dreamin 'bout God Knows What

So yeah. Recently i've been having pretty stange dreams. Well dream really. It's kind of like a world and I'm just watching. I'm not involved in any way. Its Like a Story that I've thought up in a dream which is being illustrated to me.

Anyway, without boasting myself to great heights I must resist to write about Whatever this is.

Purely because I think it's excellent :).

(Does'nt really make much sense seeing as the only person that reads my blog is my girlfriend that I tell all my stupid ideas to anyway... but you never know!)

Yep...I honestly thought that was worth taking the time to write about. I know, sometimes I worry myself.....

Later :]

Time Hangs Around For No One

2009 is now no more than a memory. A strange cocktail of good and bad memories amalgamating. Many, Many negatives but a quite unprecedented positve bringing everything into a sort of balance.

The last day of December was one of the few highlights of the year. Simply because I was surrounded by people that mean a great deal to me. With the addition of someone very special to end the night with :).

I'm crossing my fingers for a exceptional year this year. As long as these occur I'm pretty faithful

• My little gamer starting school
• Spending as much time as possible with my beautiful girl.
• Success in some form
• Lots of kick ass films and games
• (Possibly the greatest tattoo sleeve ever devised :p)

If I'm half as happy this entire year as I was from around 1:00am onwards on the 1st of January 2010 then all will be well.

And as of all the bad shit that happened last year. There's this line, I cant remember where I heard it but I'll never forget it. It goes something like this.....

It does'nt matter what happened yesterday or the day before. All that matters is what will happen today and the next.

Later :]

The Girl Of Make Believe.. Very real

My beautiful red haired angel. (not actual pic...obviously, but I wanted a reference to her vibrant head doo lol)

There's a Girl.. Well she's not just a girl. She's my girl. The craziest thing is i've known her for ages. But its only recently that I realised just how much she actually means to me.

I think everything happens for a reason and all the bad stuff that has hapend to me did so that we could be toghether. It was worth it!

I remember the first time she told me she liked me. My heart sank and my joy was as obvious as a candle in the dark.

I used to lie in my bed alone and think about her being in my arms. (It seemed so unrealistic to me).

And now... She is lying in my arms at night. Sometimes I just lie next to her and touch her arm just to make sure its real. I've never been more comfortable than when she hugs me. When I look into her eyes I know she cares just as much as I do which helps me get up in the morning :).

Shes complicated and sarcastic but I would'nt have it any other way. I can be insecure and sometimes I may doubt what she sees in me but when she says those three words to me everything else just blows away.

I'd do anything to make her happy and I hope my stupidity and love for her will.

I'll never let anything come between us and you'll always be my girl.. i love u x

Later :]

Rollercoaster Mind

This life is so short. And the biggest problem I think.....?
Everyone overthinks things. Those who don't probably should because they make stupid decisions.
How do we win?
How do we know the specific amount of thinking that is required?
The short answer...We don't. No one is perfect. No one can make the right decisions all the time.
As for me.. I overthink. Even when its not really required.

Ok especially when its not required. But only because I have more time to think about it.
I have an example...
Think about someone that you care about very much. Someone that you may even love.
Think about if that person was un happy. That automatically makes you un happy right?
Now, you know whats bothering them... kinda, however. You don't know how to make them feel any better.
Thus... a Rollercoaster of overthinking will ensue.
Maybe I'ts really your fault (Very rare) but you may think it for a short time anyway.. Human nature i guess.
Anyway my ultimate point to this blog is that everything happens for a reason. No matter what it is. I keep trying to tell myself that when i'm overthinking. which is alot :p..............

Later :]

I Just Can't Get It Right!

I've always had a pretty intense imagination. I guess thats why I enjoy writing. However I'm also in some way a perfectionist and am never satisfied with anything I do.

At the moment I have this small writing project so to speak that I'm having real trouble getting on with.

Its mainly been written on impulse which I find is were my best ideads are found.

But now I have the dreaded Writer's block. I feel stupid in a way just for saying that because I don't see myself as a writer.

All the same I guess it's the technical term for the problem I seem to be having.

See... I have this idead and its amazing (as far as i'm concerned lol) but I feel like without an amazing ending it will never really mean anything to me.

So now I'm torn between scrapping it and loosing this idea forever or giving it an ending that I know I won't be satisfied with.

I hate decisions.....Grr

Later :]